Showing posts with label hallucinations. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hallucinations. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

More Disorientation with end stage liver cancer

Brenda no longer has earthly conversations. She still recognizes me and says thank you when I give her a drink or tidy her bedding.

I do know she is conversing on the other side. I sit and watch her lay with eyes open staring aimlessly into the abyss. She giggles and I know it is going to be a glorious transition. Sometimes she moans but she is with out pain.

She constantly makes hand movements as tho she is drinking. She has smoked for years and she sometimes makes smoking movements. She sees things that aren't there..grabbing into the air as if catching a tiny fairy or perhaps an angel extending a hand.

They put a catheter in her yesterday in hopes she stay in bed.....but no.....she still struggles her weakened body up and sits on the commode. She mumbles to some one or something then she will look up and say "ok I'm done". These commode conversations must be entertaining to her as she smiles during them.

She has not eaten for 4 days now. She is taking little fluids, swallowing is becoming difficult, she is becoming more dehydrated.

When Richard was ministering to her Sunday he asked her if she wanted anything. She replied yes, a prayer for my sister. He shared this with me tonight and I'm still crying. This is an over whelming blessing my sister gave me.

My daughter n law is now staying with me and we are sharing shifts caring for Brenda around the clock. Brenda's wish is to die at home and I am seeing to that.